What are you looking for?

So finally here it is: my first script that I published on here throughout the whole July. So here you can download the whole script as PDF and read it in one, or read it again.

This is all pure fiction. And as it can't be used for the show itself, I really hope it doesn't cause any trouble. If anyone of the show itself, what I doubt but I wanna clearify that, would read it and there would be any problem, just write me and I'll put it down. I really don't wanna get in trouble with anyone of these brilliant and creative minds, who inspired me a lot thus far and are still doing that. The show brought me back to what I mostly loved, the writing. I paused it for a while, but it needed the show to let me realize what it was that I missed all the time.

The story also has the physics stuff, and the Star Trek like the show itself. But it's not about the characters, it's about the actors themselves and what they could do, or what could have happened to them during a break after season five. But as I said it's pure fiction - so of course I know this won't happen like that. As I don't know any of these guys in person, I don't know if they would really behave like that. And some things might sound weird at the beginning, or are overstated, but it's all nicely meant.

I really hope you enjoy reading it, and as English is not my mother tongue, I would be really glad if you tell me when you don't understand any sentences, when I used a word wrong, wrote it wrong or I used some wrong grammar. I would be also very happy if you tell me what you like and what not, e.g. about how it's written.

And if you wanna publish it somewhere, or wanna know more about my work, please write me. Thanks.

So here it is, as a free download. Please don't edit or change anything, it's for reading only! Enjoy it ;)

 PDF-File What are you looking for? - written by Sanny Spear, June 2012

On which cloud are you?

Some years ago all people would have answered: on cloud nine. And if not, they at least wished to be there or go there again.

Well, I don’t have to mention that things have changed in the past years. There are so many clouds everywhere we go and look. And no, I don’t mean the clouds we see when we look at the sky, I mean cloud computing. The computer has clouds, the computer is the new heaven. We can save everything there, it is a cache on the Internet, so you can save all your data, music, letters or whatever, and reach the stuff with any device. Because it is all on the Internet and not on your home computer.

like the heaven is the internet full of clouds. everyone can reach the data from everywhere.

I have to say I use Google Docs for writing and saving my blog entries on the Internet until I publish them on my blog. But is this really safe? Sometimes I think about that. I mean, it is nothing important, just my thoughts about various things, and I would never save any real important information there like my bank account data. This is a good service, because nowadays we don’t just have one computer, we have lots of devices with which we can use the Internet, e.g. our smartphone.

Everywhere we go, we take our data with us, we show more and more of ourselves on the Internet, with the entire world. What a revolution. But we also should take good care of what’s really important, things we don’t wanna anyone else to see. Some publish too many pictures and stuff like that e.g. on Facebook, and don’t think about the consequences. I mean also all social media network sites like Facebook or Twitter, are clouds as well. Because you can upload pictures and save it on the Internet, so that everyone can see it. But keep in mind, the Internet is not a person. A person can forget, the Internet not. Once on the Internet, for ever and ever on the Internet.

Whole life in 24 hours

I might have mentioned the last book I read. It's called 'Before I Go To Sleep' by S.J. Watson. I have to admit it's one of the best books I ever read and recently finished reading it. The story is about a woman who wakes up every morning and has no memory. She can't remember anything. Imagine you wake up, and don't know where you are, or even who you are? Every day you have to discover yourself.

She only has a few memories of her youth, and sometimes she can remember a few things, but after she went to sleep and wake up the next morning, it's like the last day didn't exist. She only lives for the day. The time has no meaning. The man she wakes up with every morning, she can't remember him either but has to believe what he tells her. About their marriage, about their son, about their life. Every day the same.

Her doctor had the idea that she should write some sort of journal and he calls and reminds her every day to read what she did the days before, and what memories she had. And so she writes about her life every day that she can re-read the thoughts she had that day some days after. That she can read her own memories, and has not just believe what others tell about her and her life. So the diary gets longer and longer, and the reader is like that woman who reads her journal and gets to know about her and her life.

Living with no memory of yourself and your life is really hard.

It let me start thinking about memories. What would we be without them? Isn't it our memory that makes the person that we are right now? We remember the good and the bad things that occured to us in life. We met people, those we can trust, and some who really disappointed us in any way. Luckily I haven't met many belonging to the last group of people, but I do have met some weird guys, and also some mean and dishonest people. Memories help us not to do the same mistake again, and also let us remember the people who once left us can so that they can still be alive in our memories.

How would it be for you losing your memory? That you don't know who you are, how your name is, to whom you're married? That you don't recognize your own kids, or brothers and sisters? I guess it would drive me crazy. It's like starting a new life over and over again, and don't have any life at all. I mean you neither have a past nor a future. You just live right here and right now. It's like meeting a stranger, but also knowing that you're meeting yourself. Every day is like a whole life. Next one starting tomorrow after waking up, will last 24 hours or less, depending on when you fall asleep, and then it will all start again.